Restrained

I want to cry... I have been mad recently. I keep repeating I don't want to be restricted by the orthogonal forms of Revit. I love to draw perspectives freehand. Then now I'm trapped in a hole without Revit to work on. Mad design at the first place. What high ambitions to curve bamboo and free-form concrete?! Now Revit is our main enemy! And what-the-hell SDE don't allow access to the many many PC in the DDS? And WTF the many many PC at 4th floor and MML don't have Revit?! I only have 5 more days... I'm still having a lot to do and the fat bug is hogging on my PC at home... Help me...